Brain Down Time…

Hey. It’s a Monday I can handle. I would’ve liked to sleep in more, but I’d have to live further in the boonies, away from gardeners and their blowing devices, plus no daylight to make animals think it’s feeding time. Not happening. Plus I shouldn’t go to sleep so late, but I was contemplating a drawing in progress, and I needed brain down time, and then the ideas popped into my head, but then it was like midnight and I knew Simba would be boofing early in the morning and the boychild would show up from work and there’s just no point in trying to sleep in. Ah well. My art brain is a child sometimes. I wanna stay up! So I’m a little tired this morning. What’s new.

So in quilt news, I finished the binding and sleeves on the Supremes quilt…

Then I needed to add some writing and embroidery (not a lot), so I did that Saturday. Then emailed the prospective buyer. Yes, y’all…this beauty has sold already. I’m always incredibly appreciative of those who support me in all the ways (two friends mailed me those stick-on thimbles to save my finger from holes while stitching the binding on). As I get closer and closer to retirement from teaching, which pays the bills, I do hope I can continue to make the big and beautiful quilts (as well as smaller ones), and selling them does help. This one took 181 hours to make. I’ve been working on it since July 13. At some point this week, I’ll make a post about all the bits and thoughts, best I can.

Saturday night, I started drawing the next quilt. I have a deadline. I’m trying to stay ‘simple’ (this is incredibly difficult for me). I had a drawing in my head, so I started on that, but Nova was insistent.

Really insistent…

Persistent even.

At some point, I just paused and petted her a lot and eventually she had enough attention and left, and I finished drawing. I have no picture of that, of course. And then yesterday, I enlarged the drawing and stared at it for about 30 minutes and then started adding stuff. But then stalled, so then I sat down and scrolled through stupid social media for a while as I watched Madam Secretary (still bingewatching that) and then the idea slammed me upside the head for how to complete it. I taped a bunch of paper on the side and bottom of what I’d drawn (Keep It Simple! um. Maybe not). And then realized it was almost midnight. Aargh. It’s OK. It’s in my head. I can do it. But to really meet the deadline with this one, I need to do more than an hour a night this week. So that’s my goal. Along with everything else. Put in some serious time every day. I can do that. Around cooking and going to family gatherings and dropping people at the airport and walking TWO dogs (the puppy who is no longer really a puppy is coming to stay for 8 days).

I’ve also been stitching down wool bits on something I can’t even show you…but it’s a brain filler. Lets me relax and see progress.

Saturday, we hiked…

My favorite tree fungi (above, not below).

Weird weather flow over the weekend. Today we are back to blue skies.

Girlchild is wandering through Scotland on her way to the wedding that the boychild and ex will be attending as well (hence my puppy visit)…

I’m totally jealous. I made one attempt to go through Scotland (by myself, with very little money), couldn’t understand anyone, got driven nuts by American tourists, and gave up after a week in Edinburgh. I regret that now, but know that I would be much more confident traveling now (it’s also easier with the internet etc.). Maybe someday. Anyway, so the whole family will be in the UK for Thanksgiving except for me, the Man, and the parental units. It’s OK…they’ll all be here for Xmas. I’ll be making a little Tday feast on Friday for us four. Not sure how many dogs will be attending that…at least two.

I also am trying to clean up and sort the other drawer of fabric that Kitten slept in for about 6 months. Serious fur incursions. I’m sorting, dehairing, washing when necessary. Prepping some to be donated. I have donations for SJSA if they need them and The Navajo Quilt Project. My quilt guild also needs donations. So my goal for this week is to get some stuff boxed up and mailed out. There are some reuse stores locally, but they want pictures and then to approve stuff, and that sounds like more than I can deal with at the moment. So here’s the blue drawer sort in progress…

Along with the perpetrator of furry deposits. Sigh. She loves to lie in fabric drawers, that’s for sure. Annoying.

I forgot to show the SAQA auction quilt I bought this year. This is by Jane Haworth…

To add to the collection…this is most of them, although there are 7 in other places around the house…

I usually buy one a year, but two years ago, I bought two because I had sold something and the dinosaur called out to me. They fit really well in the wall space above my windows. And I get to see them all the time. And you can hear the gardeners in the background. Not mine.

Simba in a mood…

OK. So let’s focus on today. I need to finish the drawing, number it, and start tracing. I also need to put some stuff in a safe place because that not-puppy is coming today and she destroys toys and other things. I need to go get my knees X-rayed for future cortisone shots (that I can’t get until February). I need to shower and eat breakfast before all that. I also need to do some grading today, get it over with so it doesn’t loom over me all week. Tomorrow, I’ll do some lesson planning. I think. I do have a vet appointment tomorrow for Simba’s eye again. He’s going to need surgery on a growth that is just getting bigger. And dental stuff for me on Wednesday. Fun times. Plus lots of dog walks and book reading. That’s the plan anyway. Make art, read, sleep, garden…damn, I need to do some of that too. OK. Whatever it is, I do need to get my act in gear and get started.

Current Mental State

Today is Friday before nine days off from school. Will I still have to do school things? Fuck yeah. Will I have to be on campus? Or deal with kids? Or meetings? Fuck no. Win win. I even turned today’s video into one that they need to do on their own, with headphones on. Good reason for that, actually…there’s a bunch of kids who need to complete one or two academic assignments, and this keeps it quiet. You know who else gets some quiet? Or at least can help some of the super low babies? ME. Yup. Smart move, Thursday Night Nida. You anticipated my lost voice, my tired brain, my DONE mentality. Good one. Sigh.

Had to get up early today for a parent meeting. So I’m rolling more tired than usual. This is the second one this week too. Pros from this week: my TA (teacher’s aide) took apart ALL the roller coasters, so my counters are CLEAN again. Bless that child. She just knows how to do the things. She also put away all the magnet stuff. I pulled the last bit, magnetic fields, and did it as a demo for most classes, because some dumbass kid did this…

If you’ve never had to get iron filings off a magnet, you might not understand what an asshole maneuver this is. I do. I’ve done it before. I warned them and then one sweet dumbass did this. So I took them away. There was some “not fair” being called out. It isn’t fair; you’re right. But there is my sanity. Anyway, magnets are done…electricity and light after break. Eyeballs after Winter Break. I still do labs. Just frustrated at the moment. Welcome to middle school.

I’ve been sewing binding for days…

Nova has decided it’s ‘commune with Kathy’ time. Which is fine. It’s nice to have a cat next to me (although she’d prefer ON me) on the couch. I made it all the way around the binding last night and started on the sleeves.

Looks like the same picture. Certainly I’m back in my pajamas. Different sweatshirt though.

And she’s actually nibbling my arm and making very sharp, pointy biscuits in my leg.

I have officially poked a hole in my finger, AND I can’t find the sticky thimble things. I put them somewhere safe. Again. I looked everywhere.

Speaking of looking everywhere, I lost the spool of thread I was using for the handstitching on Wednesday night. Couldn’t find it anywhere. Looked in the couch, under it, under the coffee table, etc. Thursday night, I took everything off the couch (it’s my embroidery project storage area really) and couldn’t find it, until I pulled the quilt out…I had looked before, but there it was, slipped down into the sleeve. Fun times. I love spending an hour looking for something like that. It’s a sign of my current mental state. Soon to be better! More sleep, more time to just be, get some stuff done, start a new quilt (this one is going to the photographer tomorrow). All good. Take the time, relax. Read 17 books. You know. YES, I have to clean house for Thanksgiving and do all the sociable things I don’t feel like doing, plus dentist, doggie eye doctor, make a decision about pneumonia shot (I’m still sporting a rash from the COVID/flu shot extravaganza from last week). It’ll be fine. It’s time anyway, and that’s one thing I always need more of.

Put the Magnets Down…

Hey. It’s been a week. Yeah. It’s only Wednesday. It’s OK…there’s only three more days of school until I get nine days off…nine days I need…not just for my sanity and for rest and recovery, but also to get a shitload of work done so I can get my head above water for school, and also to do all those medical things that I can’t do during the school week. Or weekend. Dental, vaccines, dog needs eye surgery (fun times), etc. On top of all that, the Man was laid off yesterday…we knew it was coming, but were hoping it’d be after the holidays. Oh no. Let’s do it now. And my co-teacher is now officially out for the rest of the year…which I also knew was coming, but now that it’s official, and I realized I have 2/3 of the school year left, well…sigh. Yeah. I will figure it out, but I’m also already tired of it. I want to draw more. I don’t want to lug home a big bag of stuff to grade or spend 6 hours on Sundays prepping and grading or always be pulling my computer out after school, trying to get control of the assignments. It’s just been a constant slog since August 2020. And I know my team wants me to do training over the summer again, plus I’m probably going to have to pilot the new learning management system they’re already piloting, but that’s my brain being anxious about things that are 7 months in the future, and that’s just stupid. Deep breaths.

What’s today? More magnets. I swear, I had to say “PUT THE MAGNETS DOWN” about 17 thousand times yesterday, but today, we move the fuck on. Well, honestly, I’m debating in my head whether to flip tomorrow’s lab into today and just fully torture myself, then give them the academic assignment tomorrow. I was revising the week last night (after grading two classes of packets, after going to the dentist, after teaching all day, after a parent meeting, after a phone call with my doctor in the morning about how I need to eat more plants. And change my deodorant. And retire.) and I’m still not sure about what we’re doing today. It will be a seat-of-the-pants decision. So today it will be “PUT THE IRON FILINGS DOWN” instead, but hey, whatever. They’re learning. I think. Only one magnet broken so far (KNOCK ON FUCKING WOOD Y’ALL), compared to last year’s flurry of brokenness. What does one DO with broken magnets? I don’t know. If I glue them, will they hold? Will they still work? What does one do with magnets that no longer work? Yes, that’s a thing. Middle school kids suck the magnetism out of bar magnets.

OK. Well. So no decisions. The plus is that today is way mellower than yesterday. No parent meetings today. No dentist today. Pilates today. Some semblance of an assignment in my head. And the quilt is at that sweet almost done but very meditative stage where I just pull it onto my lap and start stitching (dark blue thread in the dark; always a good choice). I won’t finish tonight, but I will finish this week. Then hopefully to the photographer this weekend…that’s the plan anyway. Meanwhile, we have daily pictures of binding being sewn down.

Very exciting…

Dehairing is also in its future. I had a cat trying to burrow under it last night. I’m like, hey, no, the Supreme Court is not for cats to lie on (but then, maybe it is…maybe the next Supreme Court quilt has a giant cat lying on them so they can’t vote for stupid shit).

Yeah. Maybe. Last night I also did my active shooter training, because I hadn’t done it yet. Put it off.

If you’re wondering about being a teacher, there are regulations for armed assailant training now. There’s also going to be a re-enactment (I’m sure there’s a better word for that) over Winter Break I think? We got an email about volunteering for that. Yeah no. It’s bad enough that we do the drills with the kids. I’m not doing that shit for any reason.

Oh yeah. Well. OK, I should go to school and set up the lab stuff for the stuff I wasn’t going to do until tomorrow. Tomorrow’s self will appreciate it. And then find a filler, I think. I have one…I need another. And then do the things so I can go to Pilates and move my body and then come home and do more school stuff and then stitch some more. A day at a time. There’s a new quilt in my future, and that’s a good thing.

That Mindspace

OK. It’s Monday, but it’s a week until I get a week off. Yes, I just had a day off, and yes, I enjoyed the extra time before I had to buckle down and work for the day job. I need more of that. I’m a little in burnout mode right now. Trying to stay out of that…it won’t help me get through the rest of the year. Not sure what will, though. So can I do this 5 days? Um. Maybe. Seriously. Not sure how long all the things will take. I added new stuff this year to stuff I did last year, so there’s always this sense of not having a clue how long anything will take. But only half of it, because the other half is stuff I did do. Ugh. Anyway, we’re in magnets and at least there’s some hands-on stuff this week, but a bunch of stuff is up in the air, hope it works, or hope it doesn’t, or shift this because of that. So that’s not something I really enjoy. I like knowing what I’m doing and how long it will take. Yup.

Plus there’s like 4 parent meetings, but I can’t go to one of them, and one of the others, I need to get through a phone call visit with my doctor in time to go to that one, which I organized (it’s not how I meant it to be), so that’s fun. Double ugh.

Meanwhile, I did finish quilting on Saturday night…

Spent a few hours Friday night…

Finished the outlining with an hour or so on Saturday morning, then packed it up and went to buy binding, because the store is closed on Sunday. Then came back and started the background.

Saturday, I quilted for 5 hours.

I remember back in the old days, pre-COVID, when I could spend most of Saturday working on art stuff if I wanted to.

The only way I could pull it off this weekend was because I had Friday free too. Sad but true.

Then last night, I trimmed the quilt and started getting the binding and sleeves on.

I didn’t finish. I started at 9 PM (worked on school stuff from 2 PM until then, minus cooking and eating dinner). And then it was 10:40 and I needed to go to bed.

I still have one sleeve to put on plus all the hand stitching. I’ll be on the couch with that this week. Then I’m emailing the photographer. He’ll have a field day with this one. Then hopefully mail it off to its new owner. Although my quilt guild wants to see it…so we’ll see if the timing works on that for the next meeting.

Anyway. The next one is in my head. Not sure if I have time to finish it for that deadline, but we’ll see.

Meanwhile, I’ve been drawing in restaurants and forgetting to photograph any of it.

Sometimes it takes two nights out to finish a drawing. Not that one. They took a really long time to serve us.

I drew at the book signing while I was waiting. Shootings are apparently often on my brain.

Sad but true.

It’s the one time I get to draw at the moment. No other free time, really. I need to have a certain frame of mind to draw, and it’s harder to find that mindspace. If I’m home, I’m more likely to pick up my computer and try to get school stuff done. Because it’s ever present.

Friday, I spent time with my old veteran, replacing some lattice covers so I could plant something to cover them.

The old ones were 20 years old and broken, so these have another 20 years hopefully. I also got two vaccines, one of which is causing an allergic reaction on my arm…fun times. Then two MRIs (one for each knee!). It was a weird day. But some stuff got done, which is good.

OK. Well. Today is what it is. I go to work and keep teaching magnets, and hope the labs work out etc. And all the parent meetings this week go well. And I feel less burnt? Unlikely. That’s just the way this year is rolling. Ah well. Time to build some mental health days into my curriculum, eh? I think so.

Feels Different

Hey. It’s later than usual. It’s Friday and I’m not at work! And I’m not sick! And a veteran is coming over later to help me do some work around the house! That’s how you celebrate THIS veteran. Make him help you do work. Plus he has way better tools than I do. What other exciting things am I doing today? I’m getting three vaccines (like a nutball) and two MRIs. Yeah! Do not try this at home, y’all. I’m fully expecting them to tell me I can only have two of the vaccines. Three might be too many. Kitten has already drawn blood on my right hand (IDK what I did, but she didn’t like it). I braved nasty traffic last night to hang out with my stitching friends…got very little done on this…

I think some window sashing and 1 1/2 shutters, plus some running stitch. I’m impressed by the people who can stitch one of these in a year. I guess I have a lot of other stuff going on.

The literacy meeting on Wednesday allowed me to get some small things done, so that was good. It also netted me stickers.

I finished a good book last night, Shoot the Moon…it did not go the way I thought it would, which was delightful.

I finished that last night…came home after stitching group and just sat there for an hour and devoured the last half. I need more of that.

Then I quilted for an hour…because I knew I could sleep in this morning. So Wednesday’s quilting…I refused to work that night, so I did over an hour…

Got the torso done, and then started on the justices to the left (when upside down…when right side up, they are to the right, which makes more sense…not sure I planned that? But maybe I did).

In the longer time frame, I got through three justices that night…

Then did the other two last night…

My camera recognizes the faces as faces, which is weird. So now all I have left is the arms and head of the goddess and everything above her, PLUS all the background quilting. I’m at about 10 hours in…and I was figuring 15 or so? I think. And I still think that’s valid. There’s a lot of little fussy spaces to be filled. I’ve done some of it as I was outlining, but not all of it. So hopefully this weekend? I’m going to have to go buy binding tomorrow anyway, or I won’t get to until next weekend, which would suck. And it looks like I might be starting a new quilt over Thanksgiving, which is good, because I have two deadlines coming up, and one is coming very quickly. Yikes.

I’m so proud that I have finally been able to color in a unit packet cover page…so many of last year’s didn’t get done because two grade levels, and I never finished Unit 2 this year either.

My students say he looks lit. AKA stoned. I said it’s daylight savings week…he’s tired. Also asked them if they’d looked in mirrors lately. So yeah. Great.

Nova in the air biscuit competition. Still winning.

Will I have to work this weekend on school stuff? Of course I will. I’m also quilting and trying to install these lattice things to replace the old broken ones so I can plant a viney thing to grow up it and also clean some stuff and quilt…did I say quilt? Yeah. That. But today is kind of busy. My fault of course. It’s nice to have a day off though. Really nice. Feels so different than a regular weekend. Fully appreciating that.

The Wondrousness That Is Quilting…

Weird week. Grades were due (check). Roller coaster projects were due (check). Roller coaster project packets were due (check). I have a literacy meeting this morning, but teaching in the afternoon. Sub plans were due (check). Then Friday is a holiday. Gonna appreciate the hell out of that by getting 3 shots and 2 MRIs. Meanwhile, my heel is hurting again after a 16+-year break from no pain. Fun times. Can’t get a cortisone shot at the moment…blood sugar is confused by my existence. So hmmm.

In awesome sauce news, My Body. My Choice. got into Art Quilt Elements, at the Wayne Art Center in Wayne, PA, starting in March.

And I’m still quilting…in the fussy tiny bits that are the faces and hands of the justices. Monday night, I finished all the people under the umbrella, the umbrella itself, and one justice…

Then last night, I did three more justices…

And the roots under the Supreme Court building. I do end up quilting all their faces upside down, which isn’t really an issue. Seems weird as I’m photographing it though. I also cleaned out the bobbin enclosure. It wasn’t very dirty. I need to take the machine in once this quilt is done.

Monday, I tried to ship the sold quilt, but the UPS store that was supposed to be downtown and open late was no longer there. It was a big hole in the ground. When I called UPS (after walking a mile around downtown due to my stupid map app putting me half a mile away from a location that didn’t exist), they first sent me to another address, which also didn’t have a UPS, but at least wasn’t a hole in the ground, and then I called again (pretty pissed off by now, plus I saw more crack pipes in use on my wander around downtown than I have in a long time), and they were sure that hole in the ground had a UPS Customer Center in it. Nope. Very frustrating. Still frustrated. Emailed, told them to fix their website, make one store open later so real people could actually use it, etc. Ended up sending it with the Man to his work for pickup ($8 for that), because the UPS guy can’t come to my job, isn’t allowed on campus while I’m teaching, and UPS pickup can’t be an hour in the morning or afternoon, they apparently need a chunk of time. My last resort would have been driving around until I found a UPS truck, because the driver can sign for it. It’s insured, which is why I can only take it to a Customer Center. There’s one out here and it closes at 2 PM. UPS’ final answer was to get a friend or family member to take it. Great service, y’all. I hope she likes the quilt. I do. Yes, it’s OK to sell them, to send them off. I’m OK with that. The making is the most important part for me. As long as it’s documented in photos, I’m good.

I did grade all the roller coaster projects on Monday…well, I still need to do the math, but they’re done. And the kids evaluated them today, so I started cleaning up yesterday. They still need to take them apart, so that’s either tomorrow or Monday. We’ll see. They fall down really quickly.

They were pretty creative. I did cut this down from 5 weeks last year to 2 weeks, maybe 2 1/2 if I count the extra stuff we did at the beginning of the unit. No drawing, 3 days off the building, gave them labels (half of them still didn’t do them). No history of roller coasters. It’s not necessary and I wanted more time for electromagnets this year, plus more time for genetics, natural selection, and geologic time scale, which I barely had time for last year. So magnets, electricity (briefly), and light are next. I ordered cow eyeballs for dissection. Looking forward to that in January. Then we’ll do genetics, which is familiar ground at least. Although I need new stuff. The new teacher has provided a bunch of assignments, but no real logical story to how they all fit together, and then doesn’t answer emails or show up for meetings. I’m kind of done. I think this is about when I was done last year, although I still had hope for the teacher coming back from paternity leave. He gave me 6 weeks of help in February and March last year and then mostly ghosted me for the rest of the year. It’s just fucked up. Sigh. I spent an hour last night just editing a set of slides and a worksheet, plus I did happily find a book that has a ton of homework related to this unit. Bought that. Seriously, anything that helps. I’m tired of the workload. I’m either grading or planning. When I’m doing one, I’m behind in the other. Maybe next year will be better (she says until she retires).

OK. I miss my prep today. Better be fucking worth it. Need to plan literacy with my team after listening to the ‘coaches’ tell us a bunch of bullshit. Then teach…but it’s cover pages, which is chill. I might not have time to do my own cover page (again…didn’t finish the last one either) because I need to prep the labs for Monday. Hopefully my TA will be here today (she was absent yesterday). Then union meeting after school (ugh). Dark when I get home. I miss drawing. I miss embroidery time. I need to clean the damn house and take care of the yard. I am forcing time for reading my book every day. I’m allowed. The Man had tooth surgery Monday, so he is on soft foods for a few days…I probably will just eat leftovers tonight, work some more, then back to the wondrousness that is quilting. Blessed be.

Y’all Didn’t Read Instructions…

Grades are done. A miracle in itself. It felt never-ending. I mean, I say they’re done, but that’s just Trimester 1. I have four more iterations of panicking over grades. This school year. I actually already have stuff to be graded for Trimester 2…oh yay! A project is finishing up today and tomorrow, with a packet and roller coaster to be graded. 34 roller coasters, as quickly as possible, before the tape starts to fail and they don’t work. I’d do it today, but I have to ship a quilt. Tomorrow after school is pilates and Wednesday is a union meeting. Thursday? I don’t know. I still need sub plans for Wednesday morning’s literacy meeting. Not sure when I’m doing those, let alone making sure I have everything copied for next week (I don’t. None of it.),

I get frustrated with kids who continually resubmit their work without actually reading instructions or comments. I have two who tried to resubmit over the weekend (gradebook closed 10/27 y’all) but no. Y’all didn’t read instructions. You didn’t follow them. You didn’t read or follow comments. I’m done. I’m out. I cannot grade 24 hours a day.

I did get some other things done this weekend: I fixed the damn showerhead so there’s actual water coming out of it. Plus! That was a kamikaze trip to Home Depot. I also got the boychild and the ex to buy me lattice (it won’t fit in my car; I needed a truck) so I can replace what’s on the deck posts and maybe plant some things that will grow up it. I need dad’s help with that. I planted out a bunch of succulents that had been (unhappily) living on the kitchen counter. I have two more that need to go out there, but I went to my quilt guild meeting, which was nice…got to see everyone’s scrap block challenge pieces, the one I never got to. I know…I never do. Well, except during COVID.

And I quilted…Friday night…in the swamp.

Saturday night, I worked on pedestals…

Last night, I finished the pedestals, did the goddess’ legs up to the pubic area, and got most of the people under the umbrella done.

I have two people left to do. The machine is being a little fussy. Not sure how to make it stop. Probably needs cleaning. Next time I refill the bobbin thread, I’ll do that. See if it helps. Also, when I finish, I probably need to call the machine guy and put it on the list to be serviced. I think it’s been a year. They used to put a sticker on it so I would know. Not finding it. Doesn’t mean a cat didn’t eat it.

Probably not this one…

Nova has been clawing my ass in the work chair out in the living room, or making air biscuits here on the couch. But not in my office/studio.

We went hiking on Saturday…

It’s getting dark so early. Ugh. Even earlier tonight.

The next month is a little lighter on the weekend events. Plus some days off from work, which will be much appreciated. I’ll still need to grade and plan, but not while I’m working in the classroom. After today, I can put all the roller coaster materials away and we can move on to the next stuff. After I find all the magnets. I know they’re somewhere. Probably multiple somewheres.

She is cute.

So I’ll be quilting all week, probably. I tried to buy binding on Saturday on the way back from my guild meeting, but I didn’t find anything obvious that would work. I’m going to have to wait until I’m done (or near done) quilting and take the whole quilt in. Friday or Saturday. The quilt store isn’t open late enough during the week. I do have Friday off, so hallelujah. Today is finish building roller coasters, get packets in order, ready to turn in, babysit some kids who didn’t go on the other team’s field trip, a staff meeting, then drive to the UPS place that is actually open after 2 PM to ship this quilt. I have to cook tonight, plus plan some more or something for school. Then quilt. Blessed quilt.

Focus.

Hey yo. Going into Friday with an attempt at zen that will probably dissolve into wack. British spelling. Means something different than what I might do to a mole. Anyway. So that’s my brain falling into rabbit holes. FOCUS Nida. Focus.

As I’m grading all this last-minute crap, that’s what I’m constantly telling myself. Some of them are doing a great job; it’s a joy to regrade their work, note the improvement, tell them how awesome they are. But then a chunk are just rushing it, they’re still not getting it, they’re fixing as fast as possible and still doing a crap job. Frustrating. And those are the ones sending me emails begging me to change their grade, or asking me “does ANYONE get an A in your class?”. Yes dear, but today? Not you. Can that change? Sure. Keep working. If I’d had her last year, she’d be there, but of course, this is the year where you have to have a 4.0 and outstanding in behavior every fucking trimester to get on the stage at graduation. This is one of the things I hate about 8th grade. The begging and pleading. Just listen to the instructions, turn your brain on, and stop writing random stuff. And then there’s the one kid who is using AI. But I’m worried about her. But I’m not letting her get away with it. Sigh. Plus the kids who are still turning in late work and trying to resubmit stuff when the deadline is past. Way past.

I have one more major redo to grade, and then a whole host of little bits and pieces to check. Plus a quilt to pack for shipping. Plus a quilt guild meeting. I want to hike tomorrow. Sometime. Daylight savings is about to fuck us over, so do it now! Hike!

Let’s talk about quilting. Because I finally am. There’s a lot of detail on this thing, but I can look back at the cyberpunk piece, which was a similar size and detail, not as many pieces though, and it was 14 hours of quilting. I’m going to buy binding this weekend though. Not because I need to this week; I could probably push it to next weekend, but because the week has been shit and I need to reward my hard-ass work with some fabric. Don’t look at my stash as I say that. It’s not warranted. But it is necessary.

So Wednesday night, I finally got everything ironed and laid out on the floor…

It was pretty easy, no fussiness. Which is nice.

It took more than an hour to iron stuff and then lay it out, so I didn’t get to quilting until last night.

I started late, because I was still grading crap at 9:30 PM. Fun times. Came home and that’s all I did except make dinner in the middle of that 5-hour time frame. Also the girlchild was on FaceTime with me as she tried to find parking near a Day of the Dead celebration, which unfortunately for her parking situation, was right near her apartment. I don’t miss parking troubles, for sure. Anyway, that’s about 55 minutes of quilting done. One chapter of Ursula K. LeGuin on audiobook. I have a hard time concentrating on audiobooks. I might need to not read book-club books that way. I don’t really hold onto the info. I need to see the words. I’m done with Chapter 3 and I’m still not really sure why this person is on this other planet. Hopefully in the next 10 hours, it will make more sense. Or I’ll have to get the real book and try again.

So I’ll be quilting for the next week. In case you were wondering. I’m good with that. I have the next quilt pre-drawn in my head, which is good, because it’ll be like a 5- to 6-week turnaround. Yikes!

Here was my grading setup yesterday…

Laptop has assignment I’m checking. Candy corn post-its are lists of whose stuff has actually be resubmitted on the form (I ignore the rest; they randomly resubmit without changing anything and it drives me bonkers). Extra monitor has the rubric up for whatever I’m grading. Judgy cat butt is there for general excitement. She’s looking for geckos. To her left is my notebook, propped up on a drawer so (a) I can note any grade changes and (b) Nova can eventually knock it off when she panics about something and jumps off. I’ll be there again tonight and part of tomorrow probably. We’ll see.

Ugh. Here’s one of the four books I’m reading…this is Margaret Atwood in one of her essays/speeches.

Sigh. I never feel like I do enough for that.

School is getting me down. Last year, I was losing my mind about now over 8th grade, but the teacher on leave was coming back at the beginning of November, so I saw a light. Well he didn’t support until mid-February, gave me 6 weeks, and then bowed out. I’m not seeing a light this year, and I suspect last year kinda traumatized me (OK, more than kinda), so I’m just depressed about all of it this year. Put your head down and get it done. Not a fan. That said, here’s a bunch of paper roller coasters half done…

Amusingly, they are supposed to BE done today. We’ll see how that goes. I remember now that the lazy sit-on-your-butt and do-nothing kids drove me crazy during this project, so I’m glad I shortened it this year. They’ll get it done…or not. I’m OK with that. They can still do the academic part without the coaster done; they’ll just lose effort points.

Today. They build. I manage. They have a quiz. Ha! I grade tonight. I quilt tonight. At least I don’t have to wake up in the dark tomorrow morning. Pro. And I think I get to hang out with some friends tonight, briefly. That’s cool.

Find the Zen…

Ah. November. I see a few breaks coming up. This is a good thing. Deeply in need of no school, no pressure to have stuff done in 40 seconds flat, no racing around. There will still be grading, sure, but not like this, piecemeal, at the end of every day, all Saturday, during every class. I do need to find some zen, to find a way to take the overwhelmed feeling of all the work pressing down on me and whoosh it away. Shove it in a cupboard. Lock it the fuck up. Somehow. Haven’t figured it out yet. Certainly not today. I haven’t figured it out as of this moment. Unfortunate.

The quilt is on to the next step…I finished stitchdown on Monday night…

I’m always fascinated by the back of this…and then it disappears forever when I sandwich the quilt. So it’s only available for like a day, sometimes not even that.

Last night, I found a piece of batting big enough for this quilt in my already washed stash. Coolio. Because I thought I was going to have to wash and dry last night too, but no. I then found a piece of fabric that has been around for AGES…seriously, I bought it for baby quilts for babies who are now graduated from high school, or at least it’s that era. So 18 or so years old. But I had 4 yards of it. It’s super bright and colorful. It seemed to work. So I ironed it and pieced it and trimmed it…

Oh yeah. That’s the fun stuff. I still have a pretty big chunk of it for something. I’ve only ever used a small piece of it in a quilt. I don’t even remember which one, but there was a small corner chopped off. Find the fabric! It’s mind-boggling that I haven’t used it before now. It was waiting for this quilt.

In other news, The Way Out sold…so it’ll be shipping off to its new owner hopefully later this week (note to self, find boxes or buy boxes).

Last summer’s quilt…she was supposed to be much smaller, because I had a deadline, but in the end, the world made her have to be bigger. Yeah.

And now I can get the trees trimmed. And maybe pay the property taxes. What a concept.

Last night, while cooking dinner, I made a rough draft of the next unit. The table of contents anyway. And stuff on the calendar. I got through the first week of January. Which is 3 weeks longer than the other teacher wants to go. She wants to skip magnets. I did pull sound out, although she has a little of it, so I might put some back in. It feels better to at least have that. I don’t have everything done for next week, not even close, but I think I can get there in time. Hopefully. Not sure I can get it COPIED in time. Minor issue.

It’s funny, I saw this in the copier workroom…and had to put a correction…

But didn’t notice until today that “Usa” is also spelled wrong…well, unless you’re writing in Spanish. Ah well. I really do think teachers need to check their spelling. I mean, how can we expect kids to learn it if we don’t. Or if you know you have an issue with certain things, like my co-teacher, you tell the kids. And you’re constantly using spell check. My mom couldn’t spell spaghetti to save her life. And I have words I constantly have to look up. I can’t think of any of them right now though. Funny. Anyway. Yes, I’m a copyeditor on the side. It shows.

OK. Find the zen. Be chill. Teach how to fold a paper funnel for a roller coaster. Review kinetic energy. Grade 5th period’s unit packets. Maybe even grade 6th period (unlikely). Meet with 8th-grade science. Ignore that annoying kid today instead of trying to get him to work. His mom made him the way he is, as evidenced by her emails. You can’t fix that. She’s had 13 years on him and you’ve had 2 months. Never gonna beat that one. Ignore his whining. Then go to pilates. Then home and water some stuff, grade some stuff, then book club (I don’t even know what book we’re on), then pinbaste and start quilting. If you can. It’s OK. The shitty stuff is still there, but it’ll figure itself out…or not. I need more hikes. I need more outside. I need more time that doesn’t feel like I need to run or multitask or it won’t get done. I might need a different job, but that’s a bigger issue and probably not gonna be solved any time soon. I think I just need this job to be different and that’s a hard thing to make happen. Yeah. Oh shit, it’s the day after Halloween. Let’s talk about the candy in the classroom, y’all. Ugh.

Just Let Me…

It was a busy weekend. I managed tiny bits of artmaking, through stubbornness and refusal to sleep, really. I did a few things I wanted to do, not as many as I would have preferred, but I also worked a heinous number of hours for the day job. And that will continue all this week, because the next unit is not planned and it starts in a week and a half. Plus grades are due. So yeah. I’m hating it right now, really overwhelmed and not happy with any of it. If you see me, I probably need a hug and a donut…well, no one ever really NEEDS a donut…I probably need a hike more, but a donut takes less time. And time is something I don’t have enough of at the moment, nowhere close.

So…art first! Always. Even if that’s not what happens in real life. Friday night, after a book signing and dinner out, I managed an hour before bed…it was late, but I did it anyway.

Up in the heads and robes.

Saturday night, it was really late, after the Man’s show. Stayed up too late again…but got another 50 minutes in.

More heads. And last night, after working a million hours and cooking dinner and watering all the plants, I managed another 50 minutes.

Heads are done…I’m doing the goddess’ arms and the things above her.

This is the only time you get to see the back…

It’s kinda creepy.

Anyway, there’s not much left. I’m at 7 hours and 24 minutes. I think I might have more than 36 minutes to go? But I’m not positive. Maybe tonight? I’d like to be pinbasted and quilting this week. That’s my goal. Harder to find the time to get pinbasted though. Need to wash the batting, piece a backing, lay it all out, and then finally pin. Sounds like a lot for a work night when I’m buried.

Friday was a field trip with school to Old Town.

It’s not my favorite field trip…that would be the zoo…but it’s nice to be outside. My group was OK…some infighting occurred, which I knew would happen, because I had the kid who causes those things. Could’ve done without that. That said, we came back and mostly the kids either slept, gamed, watched the movie, or built their roller coasters while I graded. Useful. I’ll be doing lots of that this week…and planning.

Old Town was decorated for Day of the Dead, which was cool.

We do a scavenger hunt, which is nice, because we have a purpose, unlike most of the time.

That night, we ventured out to a book signing (not sure I’ve ever done one of those)…Stephan Pastis, author of Pearls Before Swine (and other things) was here in San Diego and I went to high school with him.

Here’s the actual moment when I told him we went to high school together…

It’s OK, Steph…I don’t recognize the kid you were in high school in your adult face either, except sometimes when you talk. We were on cross country together, with my brother and others, but he was the grade between us. So yeah. Fun stuff though. We ate dinner in a total dive bar, but the food is always good, isn’t it? Not sure why.

Saturday was a clusterfuck of work work work, in between an art meeting at the Lakeside Library, which had art by Bhavna Mehta…her paper work translated into metal.

Pretty cool stuff.

And then at night, the Man’s band had a show at a tiny place that blew out my eardrums and gave me a sore throat from the smoke machine (ugh). It was a good thing to dance and be sweaty for a few hours’ break though. I needed that.

Up late.

So all in all a busy weekend. I’m looking forward to a nice quiet weekend at some point. Not sure when that can be slotted in. Probably never.

So the kids are building roller coasters all week. I need to plan one thing for this week, hopefully today so I have time to copy it. But otherwise, after I demo one thing a day to build, maybe two, I’m hoping I can just finish grading and then start planning the next unit. If it works. Don’t take my prep period, don’t add any more shit to the pile of things to do (insert snotty comments about people who don’t understand email accounts), just let me get the things done. That’s what I need. And then maybe I can get this quilt pinbasted and back under the machine. Hoping.