No Art

Fun few days. Got sick, some virus. Fucked with my blood sugar. This is the fun part of being a teacher. I woke up, realized blood sugar was crashing bad, laid back on the bed and ate 10 skittles and contemplated my life choices. I can call in sick (because I feel like crap), but I need sub plans for that, and I don’t have the mental capacity for that, let alone the ability to even get down the hallway to the computer. And we’re supposed to be doing stations and one is a lab. AND I’m giving a makeup test at lunch and if I don’t do it Thursday, it won’t get done before I have time to finish my grades. So. I waited 15 minutes and stood up. It wasn’t great, but I could shower. I tried eating breakfast, not so successfully. Let’s add the third thing…Kitten bit me HARD on Wednesday morning. She gets cranky. I was trying to type on the keyboard and pet her and she didn’t like it. I washed it out, but by the end of Wednesday, it was swollen and red, so I soaked it and doused it in Neosporin and hoped. By Thursday morning, it was worse. The red was spreading. My blood sugar was crap. I needed to have a fasting test at 4:45, so I had to stop eating at 10:45 but I was not into eating things (virus? infection? both?), so I drank the juice they gave me for the diabetic kid in my classroom and then went and got more (it’s amazing how fast three nurses will respond when you mention the diabetic teacher is in need of something). Strangely, by the end of the day, I was feeling better. My blood sugar had evened out. The hand still hurt…

Before you freak out, I put my name in at urgent care, went and ran my test, and came back to urgent care. Three hours later (no joke), I had two shots, one on each hip, and a pill container of antibiotics. It’s much better this morning. I’m better, although the weird ticklish cough from the virus is still here. Blood sugar was normal this morning. Redness has receded, although it’s not gone. And yes, I’m still teaching today. Yesterday, I sat all day. I barely got up. I’m not sure I’ll have much more in me today. Pro? I got through most of the regrades I needed to do tomorrow, so there’s just two assignments I need to grade…wait, no, three. They’re all easy. It’ll be fine.

The point of all this is that I have done nothing artistic for two whole days and I hate that. But I went to bed early both nights. Which is obviously what I needed. I might need it tonight too.

This cat was in my yard.

I’ve seen it before. Few people let cats out because of the coyotes. Strangely, my little dog (who I was taking out to pee) did not see the cat. His eyesight is definitely declining.

This is true.

I also have three tiny scars from the kitten last night…so it’s not just my cranky old lady doing the damage.

OK, today is the last day of stations. I’m going to hopefully grade the one digital assignment that’s left and start grading homework, while staying seated as much as possible. I’m not going to ceramics today. Tomorrow, I’ll finish grades, pack a quilt to ship…wait, I need to sew some things for the Man’s show as well. I was going to do one last night, but my body was insistent that sleep was more important. Sunday, I’m driving two women to an art meeting in Huntington Beach. Ugh. That’s gonna suck. But whatever. I am hoping to draw tonight…hoping to have the physical energy to stand and the mental energy to think of what needs to fill the space. Because days with no art kinda suck.